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April 19th, 2010


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07:02 pm - a conclusion.......almost LOL
ok so we have fianlly or completley broken up.
We have had so many fights over the past week that we both cant keep doing this, I am jealous of everyone cause I dont feel like Ia m worty of having him that he is embarrassed of me, when he says he is not and I can tell he isnt, but my anxiety is making it hard for me to be myself.
I have booked in to get some councilling done so I can deal with my jealousy and my mistrust in my judgement, due to my bad past relationships.
Anthony and I spoke alot and turns out we dont hate each other we both still love each other but can not be together for now, and we are not sure if our future will still hold each other in it or not but for now he has to concentrate on study and I have to concentrate on getting well, helping myself and feeling more like my old self again. Then in a few months or when we both feel better we will catch up as friends and see how things go, but no hope means no dissappointment so for now if we see each other at work then we will say hello and chat.

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From:kinkyuncle
Date:April 19th, 2010 10:54 am (UTC)
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Oh Sam, I'm so sorry to hear that things turned out this way. But I agree absolutely that therapy would be best for you, I have the exact same feelings of not being worthy of a partner and being really suspicious, and counselling helped me SO MUCH with that. I know it's a cliche to say, but you really can't be in a healthy relationship until you love yourself. You'll be okay my lovely. <3

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